I’m struggling to find the time to post here as I’ve started 2023 with projects galore on top of dealing with lingering family obligations and sick kiddos. I’ve come close to two big flare ups already in January from running myself ragged but managed to listen to my body and, albeit begrudgingly, gave myself the rest I’ve needed to not go into a full blown fibro flare, and I’ve managed to start exercising more and gaining some strength to get me through this period. But we’ve also suffered some tragedies locally in the community this month which has pulled on me too.
I am finding small moments to create and chip away at my personal creative goals, but it’s never at the pace I want or the length of time I want. I remind myself that this period of life is fleeting, and I want to relish each age my children are at, but I also have this bubbling creative need deep within. And yet also this urge for deeply connecting with people in reality. There is this tugging in multiple directions that has been present my whole life, but I feel like one good thing about the pandemic was it forced a slow down. Now that things are picking back up, I am feeling the tug more strongly than ever. It’s a good thing, because it means I’m about to come out of a cocoon and expand myself once again as a creative and as a human being (hopefully), but these moments of inner tension are tough to navigate.
Anyway, I’ve got creative work to share, I’m planning to share, just need to carve out the time to share it. I have one contract ending mid-February which will free up 20 hours for week for me to focus on independent work and self-promotion, and I hope to make the most of that.
I hope this first month of 2023 is going well for all of you and that you are finding time to create and nourish yourselves.