It’s that time again, for me to pause and take stock of myself. Not that I’m not consciously and subconsciously doing this lots of other times in my life, but it has become a tradition to do a year-end reflective blog entry at the end of December and a year-beginning hopes and goals entry in early January, so here we go.
This time last year, I called 2016 my “Year of Change”. If I were going to give myself a tagline for this year, it would have to be my “Year of Recovery”. It was a hard slog much of the time, overcoming my feelings of lack, dealing with little sleep with the baby. Feeling directionless and trapped in ways I did not like one bit. Lacking care for myself in many respects. And my personal strife coupled with the appalling state-of-affairs nationally and globally just made me so tired. I’m still so tired. Bone-tired sometimes.
But I’m recovered, mostly. I’ve shared tidbits of my process on how I did it, but most of it has been intuitive and has only been accomplished out of love for both myself in this experience we call life and love for my family who has to put up with me. The final steps involve putting into action the things I know I need to do, and I am ready. I’ve got lots of plans to start rolling with. I have hope and passion and creative drive again, and even though the world may fall apart around me, I will create and love and encourage free-thinking and creativity and self-healing for others.
My one major goal for 2017 was to let myself play more in both my creative work and my daily life, and I feel like I’ve failed at the goal for the first time since I’ve started setting them. I’ve played with my kids, but not enough, and I did not get outside nearly enough nor did I really give myself creative playtime. My productivity was so low for me on all creative fronts. So that goal needs to be incorporated in my 2018 goal somehow. But I’ll do a post on that in a couple of days.
If 2017 was a dark one for you, I hope you find your light soon. We all need to be shining as bright as we can to push this darkness back.